Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Fragility of life. :: Wanderlust. :: My Canto sucks!

One thing I hate abt life: the end. Sure, I know that everything that begins will have to end at some point. But seeing it happen to those around me, esp family, gets to me. I think that the 20s and 30s are great times, where we are done with experimenting with some stuff and we move on to other stuff. We are still in the process of self-discovery, but that we have more autonomy and resources at hand. But as we start feeling comfortable in our own skin, we see our parents and grandparents getting old. My friends also remarked abt our parents' slower reactions, lower energy levels, which was a stark difference from when we were teenagers and our parents still had the energy to stay up late for us (to lecture and nag, ha). My parents for one, have problems remembering events and things to do and buy these days. Instead of them picking me up after school, I've taken to arranging my schedule so as to be able to pick up my mum from her workplace in the evenings, to carry her bags for her, just like she used to when I was starting primary school.

I'll be bringing my grandmother to the hospital later today for her heart condition checkup. Already I'm thinking of how to put some news across to her and how to avoid some topics like the breakup with her. She's been unwell since her fall at home two years back. She cooks less often these days during family gatherings and I miss her home-cooked Peranakan food that I grew up with. Aunt brought granddad to the hospital today and the results were not good. Which left me with a heavy heart though I shall have to put up a composed and my usual chirpy self when I'm with them later. And after the fiasco with Uncle last week, I totally feel that they deserve better. I'm not a patient person even on my best day but when I'm with my grandparents, I think just lending them a listening ear is what they want and need. And me being me, I usually end up buying bags of stuff over to their place despite their usual protests. :D

On to my wanderlust. Tummy's been steadily expanding these days, no thanks to good food which friends have been recommending... see I can't tell ppl tt I've not been checking out new makan places. Tsk tsk. Baby season it seems - been exchanging tips with some friends who have given birth lately, in fact, there's a first month party this Sunday. Maybe I shld consider fasting three days before the HK trip so tt I can fit into the clothes over there.... H&M!!

Although I'm been struck by wanderlust, I did not expect myself to be travelling this year... but a series of events happened which ended up with me and my gal pals checking out singaporeair.com last Friday night and booking ourselves on a flight out next week within the hour after weeks of debating if we shld even travel. Think I've developed a habit for last min travels, book tics and travel in one or two weeks. In 05, 07, and this year... hey there seems to be a trend! Timing is perfect as well, drop off my thesis draft before flying off. Better to take time out now rather than later in the year, when I might not be fit for travel... or no time to breathe, much less travel.

I love travelling... and I think that travelling suits me. It gets tiring esp all the rushing through strange hectic airports, figuring out the transportation system, the language, the places to go for food and shopping, getting lost at some point and having things lost in translation. But it's fun being in a new place, to experience new stuff, both good and bad. And to have really great travelling partners! This time we have friends in HK, we look forward to hopefully pull some strings and skip the queues at some places. J gallantly offered his swanky apartment but I don't want to cramp his style while I'm there. In fact, our schedules are so packed tt we might not be able to meet up at all! The irony. :) Can't wait to get in touch with my canto roots - been getting a crash course in Cantonese from Daddy dearest. J still laughs at my poor attempts at the language, as did E n V when I met them for lunch yesterday. Bleah. Well, at least the Hong Kongers will get a laugh when they see me fumbling with the language. Haha. Coincidentally, J, S, E and V mentioned recently on different occassions that I already have the makings of a businessman's wife, though not really the high tea kinda, but one tt's active in the biz... thank god! Think I might whither away if I was having high tea everyday. So I told J to "get me the businessman la". Friends and their teasing. Tsk tsk. But am flattered peeps! :p

I've been getting PMs abt some display pic thingy. With all feeling that it was in poor taste and some confirming what they had previously postulated. Honestly, with all the thesis draft, handling of grandparents' med appointments (which take up almost an entire afternoon each time), HK last min research, packing (two days before I leave), and social engagements, I really have neither the time nor energy to be bothered abt such stuff. Honestly at this point in time it doesn't matter anymore. Que sera sera and chill peeps! :)

A Canto song from my fav singer. Still can't sing this at ktv, but I like Cantopop, they have more meaningful lyrics than even Mandarin pop. ;)


歌曲:欢乐今宵
歌手:郑秀文&古巨基 专辑:最动听的...天作之合
作:黄伟文曲:黄丹仪

从梦里伊甸来到我枕边
梦与真之间就只差一寸
要是留着你真实地纠缠
怕没权利以后留恋
情愫与相思如最爱的书
未了那一章没翻开的勇气
故事何样美终极是分离
不敢好奇沾污结尾
犹如无人敢碰
秘密现在被揭起
明日想起
我们其实承受不了
欢乐今宵虚无飘渺
再没余地继续缠绕
谈情一世
发现愿望极渺小
留下一点
距离回味犹自心跳
欢乐今宵虚无飘渺
那样动摇不如罢了

犹如无人敢碰
秘密现在被揭起
明日想起
我们其实承受不了
欢乐今宵虚无飘渺
再没余地继续缠绕
谈情一世
发现愿望极渺小
留下一点
距离回味独自心跳
欢乐今宵虚无飘渺
那样动摇不如罢了