Thursday, September 3, 2009

我怀念的

If memory serves me right, a year ago today, I decided to leave him once and for all. No more chances, no more turning back. Ironic that one of my best friend's birthday falls on the same day, which is probably why I remember the day.

Not going to dwell on it today, or get emo about it. Remembered how I managed to get over it with the help and support of dear friends and family then. Have not talked about what happened with most and I don't intend to. Realised that I'm stronger than I give myself credit for, that I had to leave toxic relationships and that in the end, no matter how much people around you help you, you have to want to help yourself. Let this be a reminder to myself.

That relationship left an indelible imprint upon me. Have forgotten a lot of stuff since then. But sometimes, some memories come back. I no longer fight them but allow the moment to come and go.

Some parts of this song sums up what I feel. Enuff said, don't want my cousin to tell me, with all the love in her heart, to "go emo one corner", ha.

"我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
(谁 记得)谁 忘了

我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动求我原谅 抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥"



我怀念的 -
孙燕姿
我问为什么 那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么 不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我 不愿意敷衍我
还是明白你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么 我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么 却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着 把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕真相太赤裸裸 狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的 是无话不说 我怀念的 是一起作梦
我怀念的 是争吵以后还是想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
(谁 记得)谁 忘了

我怀念的 是无言感动 我怀念的 是绝对炽热
我怀念的 是你很激动求我原谅 抱得我都痛
我记得你在背后 也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌 最美的烟火 最长的相拥
 
谁爱得太自由 谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心 谁忘了那就是承诺
谁自顾自地走 谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重 谁忘了要给你温柔
 
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日 也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空 最紧的右手 最暖的胸口
我放手 我让座 假洒脱 谁懂我多么不舍得
太爱了 所以我 没有哭 没有说

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