Thursday, March 19, 2009

Is it ever too late?

A mentor once told me that when my feelings are jumbled up, to never send emails. I think that it applies for blog posts as well as getting a new haircut. This is because in our profession, image and reputation matters a lot and something small might be misinterpreted and get out of hand.

Which is why I am not going to touch on anything in this post, but just post a song which I heard on American Idol this week. I hope Kris Allen stays around for sometime in the competition, think he's pretty good in an unassuming way. Been staying at home a lot these days outside work. Not up for my usual social stuff but then again, I don't think that anything can be "usual" anymore. Trying to catch up on my lit review and reading. Suffice to say that I'm still feeling v troubled and conflicted about my future plans.

I just feel that it's too late for so many things that have happened in the past couple of months. Has it only been a week? I feel that I've gone through decades. Friends have asked me if there's really no way to
make this work and honestly, I don't know. I'm just dealing with it the best way I know how to and the best way I can.

To make you feel my love - Garth Brooks

When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I would offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry, I'd go blind for you
I'd go crawling down the aisle for you
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on a rolling sea
Down the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
But you ain't seen nothing like me yet
There ain't nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
Make you happy, make your dreams come true
To make you feel my love

Monday, March 9, 2009

I'm not strong, I just refuse to be weak.

After all the tears, heartaches and disappointments over the last few weeks, it's time for me to pick myself up to face a new week. What S said is true, that no one really knows how it feels except for us. Am getting weary these days.

作詞:陳綺貞 作曲:陳綺貞 編曲:鍾成虎

總以為謎一般難懂的我 在你了解了以後 其實也沒什麼
我總是忽冷又忽熱 隱藏我的感受
只是怕 愛你的心被你看透

猜的沒錯想得太多 不會有結果
被你看穿了以後 我更無處可躲

我猜著你的心 要再一次確定 遙遠的距離都是因為太過聰明
要猜著你的心 要再一次確定 混亂的思緒都是因為太想靠近你

猜的沒錯想得太多 不會有結果
被你看穿了以後 我更無處可躲
只是怕親手將我的真心葬送 (只是怕親手將我的真心葬送)


Saturday, March 7, 2009

一個人一生當中, 總有那麼 一件事 一個人, 讓你一生難忘

Appreciate the concern from friends and family lately; a big thank you to you - you know who you are. I am still not ready to talk to most though, so please respect my need for privacy for the next few weeks, even months.

This song brings back a lot of memories to me, esp these days. I usually associate this song with my first crush - I was so shy then that I did not dare to approach him although we took the same bus to sch for two entire years! To top it off, our paths crossed again a few years back! A sad song with poignant lyrics. .. esp with the light singing at the beginning. It's in my playlist partly because it echoes my sentiments these days.

Irony is when I don't hear what I need to know from the only person I want to hear from whom I still hold dear and yet out of the blue someone else comes back.

Seriously, enough drama already. I just want to do my thesis.

歌手:林晓培 专辑:张艾嘉电影《心动》